wait hang on

let me clear something up.

i find it more pathetic that "fat" is still being used as an insult than that i was called it.

aren't we better than this?

can we not judge someone for what they say and do as opposed to what the fuck they look like?

i'm not worried about my body conforming to some kind of design that anyone has in mind that will make me acceptable and presentable. i don't owe you that

i don't owe anyone that

the only thing i owe the world is to be a great fucking human being. 

heres something about fat shaming that's a nice watch

xoxo

mouse

mmmhmm

here's another giveaway!

click here

this one is really lovely. i think all of you should check it out.

also, my previous post is pretty important, so i'd like if you went and read it. 

thank yall

xoxo

mouse

friday i'm in love

 i was gifted some princess dresses

this is one of them

its betsey johnson!

 mmmm hello

xoxo

mouse

wouldn't you think i'm the girl who has everything?

 i ended up spending more time at brooklyn renegade craft fair than i did at the mermaid parade but i was still plenty mermaided out! i wore this, which is my bathing suit--it's vintage from the family jewels, which is normally way out of my price range but i was lucky to score this in my size (very unusual for vintage) a month or so ago.

 my hair's not that long. it's an extension. an extension that i had to cover with sharpie. it was a fucking process, and it got ink all over me.

funny faces 

 my necklace says "mermaid"

i ended up wearing this dress over it all. i got a lot of pictures taken :P

i made a really sped up video of how i dyed my hair extension (with sharpie). i have no idea if you can tell what's going on but you spin me round like a record and walk like an egyptian sound fucking hilarious sped up, so enjoy!

xoxo

mouse

smoking hot

i don't really have a picture relevant to this post so here is a shoe i covered in googly eyes and glitter. 

so i told you guys back in this post that i was going to quit smoking.

it didn't happen.

this past week, it did.

it was a lot easier than i'd expected once i decided i was going to stick to the decision to stop--i was a bitch for a few days but then not a lot happened. food tastes kind of weird now; other than that no symptoms or side effects. 

it's been so beautifully hot that i don't really feel like i want a cigarette when i go outside, which has really helped. when it's super warm out the desire to set something on fire and then inhale it goes away. 

so that's my update. hmm

xoxo

mouse

g.l.o.r.i.a.

 this is my headpiece that i made for the mermaid parade on saturday!

i was reading in the park today and a man came up to me and tried to talk to me and wouldn't leave me alone. he was trying to talk to me about things that one should never try to talk to a stranger about and i, being the scared rabbit that i am, had no idea how to handle the situation and entertained his questions as long as i could and made up an excuse to leave and ran. 

my style is a constant struggle between being able to express myself and avoiding the kind of attention i don't want. yes i'm wearing shorts. i'm not wearing shorts as an invitation to try to touch my arse.

i know i get attention from the way i dress. 

it's not what i aim for. i'm sure a lot of people think it is, but it's not. i dress the way i feel comfortable dressing. i don't know why people take my hair or my clothes as an invitation to say horrible sexual things that i just don't want to hear. it makes me want to never leave my apartment again and i hate that because i've had to deal with so much anxiety and so much shit and i'm finally feeling like myself again and then someone decides to treat me like this and once again i'm nothing but my appearance.

and how is that fair?

xoxo 

mouse

it's hot in the city tonight

i love nothing more than summer and i'm always wishing it warmer.

xoxo

mouse

happy father's day

my dad is the coolest.

he's smart as hell and funny and never afraid to share his opinion no matter how unpopular it might be (maybe that's where i got it!)

he liked the beach boys, country joe, bob dylan, and joan baez way before i thought they were cool.

when he was fifteen he helped to organize a rally against the vietnam war that ended up with thousands of attendees. i've never done anything that big.

i'm immensely proud of him, and i can only hope that he's just as proud of me.

he also really likes lady gaga.

xoxo

mouse

the cutout magazines remind me, i sit and wait alone in my room

 i'm going to a themed party tonight, it's my little cannibal pony so this is what i chose to wear.

 i know my kitchen is messy. hi billy

xoxo

mouse

i don't know what to do

i feel like i'm sort of in a hair rut.

i like my gradient, i think i'm just sick of staring at my own face. i'm not sure what to do. i've been all kinds of reds and pinks and i think that's what i want to stick to, because blue and purple have never done good things for me. i was blue last october which was probably one of the worst months of my life considering i was drunk for a month and so miserable i didn't want to function or focus on anything. 

i like pink. i like red. i don't know whether i should go bright red again, though. 

like i said, i like the gradient. but i kind of miss the red. but pink suits my personality.

anyone want to offer some suggestions?

new video haul yay

xoxo

mouse

even my tears are pink

i think about the attacks that happened over ten years ago in this city a lot.

it's unavoidable here. the fire station across the street from my apartment has thirteen plaques in memoral for the firemen who lost their lives when the towers fell. last year people left flowers outside of it. dozens of bouquets. i couldn't walk by without getting choked up.

this country and i have a love hate relationship.

religion and i have a love hate relationship. i have never been religious. but there is one very religious man who i hardly stop thinking about. 

father mychal judge was a fdny chaplain who was counted as victim number one in the attacks. he went to deliver last rites to the victims of the attack and died when he was struck by falling rubble. there is a section of 31st street, quite close to madison square garden, named after him. 

he was well known for accepting people not usually accepted by the church--members of the LGBT community, patients with AIDS, the homeless, addicts, and others.

i know a lot of people say that god is love but i think father mychal really meant it.

i took this when i went with my mom and sister to the 9/11 memorial a few months ago. 

sorry for this sort of somber post. i'll be back to my dumb face soon!

xoxo

mouse

i wanna rock

 the skirt is vintage and the top is secondhand

sometimes i just feel like dressing like my own brand of disney princess

 my fce is so akward at all times

the circus freak necklace is on etsy

 my top is fringey!

i did a walk because i have so much fun swishing this shit

xoxo

mouse

SHOE VLOG

i vlogged it out

xoxo

mouse

i started swearing to my god and on my mother's grave that i would love you 'til the end of time

 motley crue shirt from forever 21. I KNOW. i fucking know. i saw it and like screamed and i was shopping by myself so it was really awkward

american flag shorts from topshop. these were like my staple last summer i wore them like allll the time.

 tights from urban outfitters,

fully aware my shirt clashes with my hair DONT CARE

dressed pretty casually today because i'm headed off to work. yay

xoxo

mouse

what i did over summer vacation...

 the wonderful, beautiful edie pop (link) sent me a tote bag! she made it herself--it's so beautiful!

i received it as soon as i got home from pennsylvania and when i opened it i was so excited and touched i almost cried! thank you so much!!!

so i know summer vacation isn't (even close to) over but so far i've done a lot! i had a disastrous haircut but then fixed it to the best of my ability, got a new phone, cleaned my entire apartment, started work (which is amazing, by the way), ombre'd my hair (it was basically MAROON in a disastrous professional dye job... thats the last time anyone else gets to dye my hair... i had to wash it with dish soap until the colour lightened enough that i didnt feel like going out with a bag over my head), got new shoes which i will post about and a number of new clothes (including this massive motley crue shout at the devil shirt that i'm wearing here) that i will also post about... and so so much else. i've been having a really incredible summer thus far. 

i hope you guys are doing well! i've missed you!

enjoy die antwoord's new video c:

xoxo

mouse

and we'll be back on track by the morning!

i just got back from retrieving my macbook!

so now we can party together like it's 1999 again!

i missed you micey mice soooo much and i'm just so damn excited to start posting again!

xoxo

mouse