today was a good day

so i was in pennsylvania for the past few weeks and it seems like every time i'm there there's some weird drama with friends or whatever that i get stuck in the middle of, which sucks. so that happened. but then i came home.

and my friend who was babysitting my fish had cleaned my apartment (she is amazing). 

and i got a card from ally which made me incredibly happy, because she, too, is amazing.

and i posted a picture of my new tattoo on tumblr:

it's the seven sigils of the endless from neil gaiman's sandman comic books, which were the first comic books i read at the ripe old age of 12 and they sent me headlong into a lifetime of nerdery.

and neil gaiman liked the post. 

i know this is pretty minor for probably all of you but i'm SO INCREDIBLY EXCITED. i saw the notification and burst into tears. i know he runs his own blog which means he saw it and appreciated it and i'm so incredibly happy. 

and i love the tattoo, it's my favourite (right now, but of course i got it yesterday, so that could change but i'm not sure it's going to). it was designed by a really good friend and the work is amazing (some parts in the picture look a bit lumpy, but it's still swollen and healing, so that will get better). 

and... yeah. today was a good day.

xoxo

mouse

if you miss me

i know i haven't been updating here nearly as much as i should be, and i'm sorry. 

if you'd still like to know what's going on in my life, i post (pretty sporadically, but more frequently) on tumblr here:

http://robertmapplethorpes.tumblr.com/

i'll hopefully be back sometime soon but i'm taking a minor break from this blog. i'm in california visiting my dad right now (which is really fun!) and posting here just isn't at the top of my list of priorities. i do miss it though and i'm still keeping up on everyone's post through my reader, so don't worry!

i hope you guys are doing well!

xoxo

mouse

nerd girls are easy

i was inspired to write this post both because i haven't written anything on here in too long and because of this post on buzzfeed shift about the 'fake geek girl' meme. 

first of all, let me just get this out of the way: being a woman is a disadvantage in this world. but it's not the greatest disadvantage. there are a million factors that could make someone worse off even just in this city. i am upper-middle-class, i am white, i am relatively thin, i am relatively healthy. i have it really good. i know that. 

but being a girl, or someone who is perceived as a girl, and trying to join the 'boys club' that is geekery--it's difficult. men have had this whole disenfranchised thing down for years. if you're a guy and you'd rather play dungeons and dragons than go to a party, you might get made fun of, but that's an acceptable choice. if you're a girl and would rather play dungeons and dragons than go to a party, what the fuck is wrong with you?

it's bad in the gaming world--this blog , entitled fat, ugly, or slutty, illustrates that well. if you're a girl that plays games, it's because you're fat or ugly--meaning men want nothing to do with you, so you have nothing better to do with your time--or you're slutty, meaning you're only playing these games to get attention from men. why?

john green, who i don't know a ton about but who seems like a really great guy, has said “…because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff… Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it. Hank, when people call people nerds, mostly what they’re saying is ‘you like stuff.’ Which is just not a good insult at all. Like, ‘you are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness’.”

this is one of my favourite quotes about anything, because it's correct. it's so true. i get so excited about things like supernatural and lord of the rings and the general awesomeness of stuff and that's what makes me happy. i love watchmen, i love sherlock holmes, i love neil gaiman. and yet when i post my watchmen tattoo on reddit, i get accused of being an attention whore. men who post similar tattoos? none of that. when i talk about how really really cute kili is in the hobbit 

(and he is really really cute)

it's assumed that that's why i liked the movie, because wow there's a hot guy in it stop the presses 

when i know things about things, people are shocked. maybe it's my hair, maybe it's my voice (being raised by a californian has left me with a bit of a valley girl accent sometimes), but for the most part i'm fairly sure it's because i'm a girl. i can't enjoy these things, i can't understand them to the fullest extent, because of my genitalia. 

I'M SORRY BATMAN I CAN'T UNDERSTAND YOU OVER THE SOUND OF MY BOOBS

anyway, it's like seven in the morning and i've been up for two hours because i'm anxious so i thought i'd just spit this out and it probably doesn't make sense and i might edit it heavily later but yeah i hope you guys are all doing well and had a great new year!!

xoxo

mouse

oh mistletoe

 merry merry merry christmas!

i hope you're having a good holiday!

i'm getting to spend it with my friends and my mom and sister and the cat in pennsylvania and it's lovely and snowy and we've just driven 20 miles just to rent love actually

 we decorated me a bit along with the tree

xoxo

mouse

oh hello

so.

so so so my little mice. 

i've been gone again, i know, and i'm sorry for that.

see, i've got no internet at my apartment. i've had none for a while now. the only thing time warner will tell me is that it has something to do with the storm, which is ridiculous, because that was weeks ago and i've used the internet at my apartment since it happened. 

still, nothing. 

i'm considering switching my service. is that even possible? i don't know.

anyway, now i'm in pennsylvania visiting my mom for thanksgiving. 

and my cat.

we are watching benny and joon, which is a wonderful film.

i'll try to get some outfit posts up while i'm here, and hopefully by the time i get back into the city my internet will be back up!

how have you all been?

xoxo

mouse

if you're a legitimate bigot, america has a way of shutting that whole thing down.

one step at a time, america.

this is my "waiting for the polls to close but already voted absentee a month ago" face. 

i'm happy. i'm so, so happy that america seems to have gotten its shit together. we have made a decision NOT to vote for the men that define rape as "legitimate" and "not legitimate". we have made a decision NOT to vote for the men who call rape babies "blessings from god." we have said, loud and clear, that we will not elect rape apologists. 

not in this country. 

and we will elect a lesbian in wisconsin, we will elect a woman in many states, and we will vote to allow same-sex couples equal rights in maine, maryland, and washington. we will take that step forward. and we will keep taking steps forward. 

xoxo

mouse 

it's election day!

guys!

it's election day!

i'm excited!

i hope you voted or have plans to vote!

xoxo

mouse

i'm aliiiive!

hey guys! i'm doing ok. i live in the part of manhattan that lost power which is why i haven't been around. i hope you all are doing well.

i've had some things happen in my personal life lately that just have been bad (and my fish died in the power outage! :( ) but hopefully i can get back on track soon.

nothing in between me and the rain

 camping out (makeup-free and groggy) in my kitchen in prep for hurricane sandy!

i have plenty of water and supplies and some friends from the evac zone who are staying over. i'm smack in the middle of manhattan so i should be safe.

i hope everyone stays inside & safe if you're on the east coast!

my hair is like five colours right now. orange, pink, red... i'm into it :)

xoxo

mouse

i didn't make a deal with the devil

this time last year i did nothing more than sit on my ass. i was miserable.

now i'm going to the gym five times a week, slowly working on improving myself and my self-esteem.

this time last year i was rarely sober for a day at a time.

i've not had a drink in ten months.

this time last year i was smoking half a pack a day.

i finally quit a few months back.

this time last year i didn't know what the fuck i was doing with my life.

today i'm working towards a degree in psychology and a career in helping people who are mentally ill.

this time last year i was stuck in a manipulative, heartbreaking relationship that i was too scared to leave because i didn't want to be alone.

today i can call one of the most wonderful and beautiful people i know my girlfriend, and the coolest dude in the world my best friend. today i can make a phone call and get coffee or dinner with any of my wonderful, beautiful friends, or i can spend the night alone. i can do what i want to do. i have that chance now.

i'm sorry i haven't been blogging much. i started it as an outlet that i don't need nearly as much anymore, which is sort of unfortunate because i really do enjoy keeping up with everyone i've met this way. i just wanted to share my progress so far--i can't believe how much has changed in the past year. i'm incredibly, incandescently happy. 

and i got a bat sweater.

xoxo

mouse

...it's just a jump to the left

 the halloween stores have opened!

i repeat, the halloween stores have opened!

i've already been three times in the last three days to various halloween stores. i. am. SO. excited. one of my purchases was this bag o'bats. gonna stick them on a headband.

 whoops i just got political

got my "slytherins for obama" and "time lords for obama" pins at nerdsforobama.org

if you are american and a lady or love a lady or know a lady or think ladies are cool people, i'm hoping that you'll vote obama this november, because remember, he's the one who doesn't think a uterus is government property.

he is also the first president in history to embrace the idea of gay marriage. thanks barack. <3 

 this eye purse is the love of my life right now. it has spikes!

sorry about my stupid face (not really) but i got some 99 cent spiders at party city today.

xoxo

mouse

california uber alles

here are a few of the bazillion photos i took during my recent visit with my family to california.

 oo heaven is a place on earth

 i always take these shadow pictures when i visit disney, i don't know why.

 flamingos at our hotel

 a sprinkle candy apple. it looked really good but the white chocolate was nasty :/ i ended up taking off the shell and just eating the apple :)

 i found the worst sunglasses ever!

 my sister and i in front of the castle making awful faces

again, awful faces 

 i thought these eels kind of looked like mermaid man and barnacle boy

this actually wasn't in california--my friend took this picture of me a while ago, but i think it's amazing. 

i did a lot of this when i was in pennsylvania after returning from california--made shrinky dinks. these are appa from the last airbender, he's my favourite character in the series. although i also really like mai and am considering cosplaying as her for new york comic con. brownie points if any of you know what i'm talking about :)

this isn't all of the ones i made, but it's a lot of 'em--randy marsh, chef, stan, kyle, kenny, and cartman from south park, two versions of appa, hercules & meg, merida from brave, esmeralda from the hunchback of notre dame, and pocahontas. all of them (except randy, who was for a friend) have holes in them so i can string them on a necklace, but i haven't found appropriately sized jump rings yet. 

i hope you guys all had a great summer, and if school is approaching for any of you like it is for me, i hope you're looking forward to the new year! 

xoxo

mouse

working out

 hey mice! just got back from the gym. i'm starting to really get into my groove i think in terms of exercise. this is what i wear to work out. 

the bra is from foot locker and the patti smith shirt is from h&m (weird, right?)

i wear shorts, too, of course. i'll show those off later though. for now i just wanted to update you guys and ask you a question!

 my ipod has very few songs on it right now, and i'm looking for some really good "work out" music. what do you guys listen to to get you motivated?

xoxo

mouse

aack

i know i've been so on and off posting for like this entire year but my apartment is currently being fumigated for these dudes:

and ive been sort of a nomad so it's hard to put together an outfit much less blog about it.

i'll be back soon. love you guys.

xoxo

mouse

smoking hot

i don't really have a picture relevant to this post so here is a shoe i covered in googly eyes and glitter. 

so i told you guys back in this post that i was going to quit smoking.

it didn't happen.

this past week, it did.

it was a lot easier than i'd expected once i decided i was going to stick to the decision to stop--i was a bitch for a few days but then not a lot happened. food tastes kind of weird now; other than that no symptoms or side effects. 

it's been so beautifully hot that i don't really feel like i want a cigarette when i go outside, which has really helped. when it's super warm out the desire to set something on fire and then inhale it goes away. 

so that's my update. hmm

xoxo

mouse

what i did over summer vacation...

 the wonderful, beautiful edie pop (link) sent me a tote bag! she made it herself--it's so beautiful!

i received it as soon as i got home from pennsylvania and when i opened it i was so excited and touched i almost cried! thank you so much!!!

so i know summer vacation isn't (even close to) over but so far i've done a lot! i had a disastrous haircut but then fixed it to the best of my ability, got a new phone, cleaned my entire apartment, started work (which is amazing, by the way), ombre'd my hair (it was basically MAROON in a disastrous professional dye job... thats the last time anyone else gets to dye my hair... i had to wash it with dish soap until the colour lightened enough that i didnt feel like going out with a bag over my head), got new shoes which i will post about and a number of new clothes (including this massive motley crue shout at the devil shirt that i'm wearing here) that i will also post about... and so so much else. i've been having a really incredible summer thus far. 

i hope you guys are doing well! i've missed you!

enjoy die antwoord's new video c:

xoxo

mouse

and we'll be back on track by the morning!

i just got back from retrieving my macbook!

so now we can party together like it's 1999 again!

i missed you micey mice soooo much and i'm just so damn excited to start posting again!

xoxo

mouse

being human is weird

and no i'm not talking about the show although that's kinda weird too

four months ago i was at one of the lowest points i've ever been. and now i feel so so so much better about my life and the direction it's going in and the people i'm surrounding myself with. i honestly can't believe that less than a year ago i was fully prepared to drink myself to death. i'd absolutely given up and i really don't think i wanted to live. i know i didn't want to think.

and now, now, now... i've given up most of my vices (still haven't quit smoking... it's fucking tough but i'm working on it) and i feel creative and brilliant and yeah bad shit has happened but i can't let it get me down because i know how i'll be if i do and that's the biggest motivator i've got right now.

i hope all you mice have a wonderful wonderful long weekend!

xoxo

mouse

hello mice

hi hi hi hi hi

i've got quite a bit on my plate recently. a few strange things have happened. 

i'm still in pennsylvania, at least until thursday, but i might have to stay on a bit longer than expected. 

i'm looking forward to the rest of the week. i'm so so so sorry i've been having such technological problems. i'm using my sister's computer which is quite slow so i haven't been able to comment on other blogs nearly as often as i'd really like to. but thank you thank you thank you as always for your kind comments. my computer issue is being resolved as we speak.

also i would just like to add that if any of you mice somehow find me on facebook, that's totally fine (and good detective work i might add). but i cannot accept friend requests from people on here unless we have actually communicated otherwise. i like to keep facebook just for the people i really know and am really going to talk to. if you want to get in touch with me, though, my email is right in my info box, feel free to send me a message!

xoxo

mouse

you better wise up, janet weiss

so once again, my laptop is out of commission. i'm borrowing my sister's school computer for the time being, while i'm in pennsylvania, but when i get back to new york it's going to be another couple of weeks without a computer. 

this really sucks because it basically means i can't blog. i will do my damndest to keep you updated with short but interesting text posts when i've got the chance to be on a computer so you all don't flee to another dimension and never come back again, because i love every single person who reads this dumb thing. 

i'm in pennsylvania for my dad's and sister's birthdays, and i'm going back to the city on thursday. i have really bad anxiety about travel so i'm already sort of dreading the journey back. alas

tonight i went to see rocky horror at midnight which, let's be honest, is the only way to do it. my friend and i dressed as brad and janet (photos to come) and it was basically fucking amazing, it's the second time i've been to this particular incarnation of midnight rocky and honestly, in a small town it's much bigger than it is in a big city. 

in a city there are people there who are doing it because it's something to do, but here you can tell the people who are there love it. sure there aren't as many of them but they're fucking hardcore.

never underestimate the power of small town freaks. 

xoxo

janet weiss