Friday, October 19, 2012

i didn't make a deal with the devil

this time last year i did nothing more than sit on my ass. i was miserable.
now i'm going to the gym five times a week, slowly working on improving myself and my self-esteem.
this time last year i was rarely sober for a day at a time.
i've not had a drink in ten months.
this time last year i was smoking half a pack a day.
i finally quit a few months back.
this time last year i didn't know what the fuck i was doing with my life.
today i'm working towards a degree in psychology and a career in helping people who are mentally ill.
this time last year i was stuck in a manipulative, heartbreaking relationship that i was too scared to leave because i didn't want to be alone.
today i can call one of the most wonderful and beautiful people i know my girlfriend, and the coolest dude in the world my best friend. today i can make a phone call and get coffee or dinner with any of my wonderful, beautiful friends, or i can spend the night alone. i can do what i want to do. i have that chance now.

i'm sorry i haven't been blogging much. i started it as an outlet that i don't need nearly as much anymore, which is sort of unfortunate because i really do enjoy keeping up with everyone i've met this way. i just wanted to share my progress so far--i can't believe how much has changed in the past year. i'm incredibly, incandescently happy. 

and i got a bat sweater.

xoxo
mouse

4 comments:

Meghan Edge said...

Sounds like you're doing really good. :-) I hope you keep updating because I love to read your stuff, but I'm glad to hear you don't need an outlet as much anymore. Hugs!

Charlie Wilkins said...

Hey, it's great to see that you're doing so well :)

Shybiker said...

I'm happy for you! All good improvements. Keep it up.

Kat said...

Woo! Congratulations!

(And I like the sweater!)

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