vesticles

lol my face

xoxo

mouse

tell me baby, how does it feel? i know you like the roll of the limousine wheel

 so i'm wearing my relatively brand fuckin new nebula dress and i got this duster coat thing on ebay 

sheer long jacket things are like my new obsession i dont know

 please forgive my still wet shower hair.

 annnnnd cat,

i really like the jacket thing because it makes me feel so incredibly 90s vampire goth. i even painted my nails this like sexy deep blacky red which is unheard of in my nail world of pastels and green slime and neon

(my fingers look super fucking creepy in this picture)

xoxo

mouse

sigh

sorry guys i know i'm super bad at life!

i've been really busy--i'm going back to PA this weekend for some medical stuff and was sick home from class for two days straight. my throat is getting worse, steadily, and i've heard strep throat is going around, which i really hope i don't have. but i should be doing some blogging from pennsylvania. and commenting on everyones blogs. 

ugh i know i keep posting these shitty ohgodi'msobusy blogs but the summer is almost here!

xoxo

mouse

blogging pantsless tye dye 2012

 I MADE SO MUCH TIE DYE

 i dunno somewhere along the line i realized doing this without pants was more flattering than doing it in batman boxers, and i just don't have enough fucks to give to do it any other way

 SIGHHH ladies why

and here is what i'm wearing today!

here's a song for you

xoxo

mouse

smokey

so i've been smoking since i was sixteen sort of on and off

i was always pretty against it until i started smoking when i was in england due to peer pressure and other great forces of nature

and actually, i'm sort of a proponent of "smoke em if you got em" because i know from my experience that nicotine is a really effective treatment for like anxiety, depression, and even schizophrenia.

a large number of people with mental disorders smoke and many don't realize they're sort of self medicating.

that being said, i wanted to feel better. 

i wanted to feel better about breathing and walking and going up stairs

it's my third day of not smoking entirely (i know i said i was going to stop earlier... it's really hard) and my body has decided to reward me by waking me up in the throes of one of the biggest panic attacks i've had in a long time.

morning panic is the worst for me because when i am not entirely awake i am not entirely aware of what's going on, so everything i'm afraid of seems so much more real.

i'm letting you guys know because i guess this is progress, but at the same time sort of anti-progress.

i know this is temporary. and i'm gonna deal with it.

xoxo

mouse

where have you been all my life

holy shit, you guys.

i just ran out of my old conditioner (fructis, purchased in huge bottles at the grocery store) and was at ricky's and decided to try the bed head resurrection conditioner and oh, man, this is amazing.

my hair is basically d.o.a. after all the bleaching and dyeing and bleaching and dyeing and bleaching and dying i do and this is sort of giving it some human qualities again!

its a lot easier to manage, easier to detangle, and feels softer. 

as soon as i run out of my shampoo i'm going to buy the resurrection shampoo, too.

this is seriously a miracle. i thought my hair was going to be forever a lost cause. 

and it smells like jawbreakers.

seriously.

like jawbreakers.

if any of you have crazy fried hair like me, or just really really dry hair, i seriously recommend that you check this shit out. it has made such a difference and i've only used it twice. 

xoxo

mouse

rainy day thrifting

 i now own three of these dresses in different colours

 mmm new clothes

it was so rainy today that i decided it would be best to go to beacon's closet and see what i could see. i saw a lot evidently.

xoxo

mouse

squeeel

i have been wanting this dress FOREVER and i just traded someone for it and i'm like hyperventilating because it fits so well and looks so good and oh my god i am so happy!!

am i the only one who is not a fan of blogger's new interface, though?

xoxo

mouse

edit:
holy shit this is my 300th post!

i myself am strange and unusual

 i had to take some silly pictures today as i was a little too goth for comfort! and yes, my hair is a new colour again. i just can't seem to be satisfied!

xoxo

mouse

hey little sister shotgun

xoxo

mouse

show me how you do that trick

i really wear this jacket thing a lot now

xoxo

mouse