i'm sorry.

i still don't have my mac. i can't take photos from my boyfriend's pc. i'm fluctuating between taking my medication and not taking my medication and neither option seems to make me too happy. i'm trying to stop drinking but it's only been today. two weeks ago was the last time before this that i was completely sober. i felt good today but now i feel bad. i don't know. i don't know why i'm telling you guys this. i'm not trying to ask for help. maybe i'm trying to ask for help. i don't think you've seen the last of me. but maybe you have for a while.